"At month's end, I dread the books. Matching appointments, treatments, and payments is a nightmare. I'm a doctor, not an accountant!

But I must ensure we're not losing money. It takes hours, and I'm always worried I'm missing something crucial.

I'm constantly second-guessing. Did I record that Sunday emergency? What about those extra tests? Discrepancies are worse - mismatched payments and services. Tracking these down is stressful detective work.

I've tried spreadsheets, software, even a part-time accountant. But I still need to verify everything myself. It's my name on the door; the buck stops with me.

After patient care, my brain rebels against number-crunching. I wonder if patients realize how much time I spend on admin. They see me as their doctor, focused on health. Instead, I'm buried in receipts, feeling like I'm shortchanging my calling.

But what choice do I have? Without managing this, the clinic won't survive. It's a constant balancing act, and some days, I'm not sure I'm getting it right."